Graduation

2019 has been a year of transition. 2018 was the year of new experiences that changed who I was: I studied abroad for the first time; I drank for the first time; I fell in love for the first time. And let me tell you, as fun as the year was, it was also a whole lot for my brain to deal with. I started this year kind of depressed, extremely anxious, and dealing with the aftermath of 2018. 2019 was the transition between the aftermath and recovery for me.

Reeling from a bad breakup, I had to remember what it was like to be happy without somebody else’s affirmation. So I threw myself into work - luckily it happened to coincide with my final year of university where work is pretty important. I stayed up until 6 am every night working on this animated trailer, I agonized over every line of my final movie script. You know, healthy stuff.

But it worked, because that wasn’t all I did. I also acknowledged that this is my last chance to hang out with these people I’ve known for the last 4 years… so hang out I did. Even people I’d never really spoke to became like family in the weeks leading up to the end. And teachers and students hung out like friends, since come graduation we’re all really in the same boat. Screenwriters just trying to make our mark.

I worked so hard, and graduated with great results from Regent’s University. This milestone I had been working towards for 4 years finally happened! I was sad that it was over, but so proud of myself for doing it - 2 years younger than most people do. Being surrounded by loving friends, proud of the hard work I had achieved, and being praised by my family - it all reminded me of who the fuck I am. It undid all the identity crisising of 2018 just like that.

So if 2018 was a year of change, 2019 was a year of transitioning back to who I was before that - just with a bit more wisdom this time.